Learning to Love

Pastor took a week off to be with me and the baby. We did a lot of fun things together the entire week. When he went back to work, I closed the door after him and cried like a baby. I keep falling in love with my husband all over again. Sometimes I think back to before we were married and I'm amazed at how much I can love a person, much more than I thought possible back then.

I'm grateful to Heavenly Father for loving me and showing me how to love. Now I'm happy to clean the house for Pastor (on most days). I'm happy to do the laundry and make him dinner and other such things. It's really humbling to recognize that in learning to love, I've learned how the pure love of Christ really works.

Pain of Divorce

My parents were divorced when I was seven. I might have mentioned this fact before, it's a major part of my life that still effects me daily in one way or another. I never wish for things to be undone or put back to the way they were when I was six, but there are things that could have been handled better. We are all human and we all make mistakes so I try not to judge.

I was praying tonight and realized that I've never talked to Heavenly Father about the pain I feel about the separation. I've never shared that with Him in any prayer that I can remember. The same moment I realized that, it hit me that the Savior has been there, shouldering my pain with me even when I didn't ask Him to. He's been there for me always, no matter what. Every day there is something else that makes me become aware of this fact all over again. The hurt has always been there ever since I remember the divorce happening and so has He. Now He is here for me when I feel so alone. His love can make any hurt whole, even when the person holding the hurt doesn't know He's there doing exactly that.